Perspective, it's all perspective...

A funny thing happened this week. I thought I was having a good run, really I did. However... well now I'm not too sure about it. To be frank, my birthday sucked @$$. Don't get me wrong, it was nice to see everyone who was able to make it. I wasn't trying to be comprehensive or anything. Christ, I only invited seven people. But for whatever reason, it was dead as a doornail about 90% of the time. No conversation at all. Uggg.
So here I am, apparently pissing people off with my girlfriend (why the fuck can't I just act normal?!), ruining my own damn beach trip, being an ass to one of my best friends, giving the apperance of ditching two of my oldest friends, being left by my gf, having an old gf drop off a #*$& book I must have left at her house a year ago, waking up with a killer headace and alienating people who I didn't know I could even alienate.
For better or for worse, this is nearly all my own doing. My mindset and bitching about this won't help anything, this is one of those instances I need to just fix the damn shit and not get so worked up over nothing.

For the record I'm deleting this post later when I'm less pissed.